the ongoing and upcoming battles.....
Hey there peeps, missed you all so much too.
Been trying to sit down and put something for you guys for ages (say, since December?) but writer's block had me licked. In previous drafts to this blog I've gotten a few scant sentences down and then my muse randomly decides "ah fuck it!" and I'm left with squat.
So here goes, I'm feeling the vibe tonight with some Dire Straits playing in the background.....Brothers in Arms, let's see how we do........
Been living in many different moods and mindsets these past months, marvelling at the wonders and the terrors of Toronto and the surrounding universe. It's been a back and forth ongoing battle between me and the big city for the past 2 years now and I'm pleased (?) to say we've finally put aside our differences and let bygones be bygones and be pals. Of course, we could never come to such an agreement were I not getting the bloody hell outta here.
That's right my monkeys, transition phase is coming to a close this year and Amy's back in the driver's seat again. Or plane seat belt. Like so many of my kind (ie you guys), Australia beckons and I'll be going down under to play the didgeridoo in fall 2006. All brought to me oh so hassle free by my nursing degree. The plan is to live, love, work and play in Perth for a year and then see where the seas send me. Perhaps back to Canada, perhaps on to some other brave new home. It's all in the paperwork stage right now but at least I know it's coming up. Australia is what got me through another Toronto winter and Australia is what will make this last Toronto summer all the sweeter. So much to look forward to. Then again, there's going to be so much to miss.
Namely my boy genius Jolan. Damn damn damn the man and his unfaltering devotion to his hometown. It's been over a year now (wtf?) as team J&A, and apart from cat allergies and differing opinions on the capital of Ontario, it's been all love, as they say in Spain. Regardless of what is to come, we'll depart ways with a bang once he moves in for the summer. Gaaaaaaa! Messhica is abandoning me with a boy, taking a short stay in Barrie before she voyages off to the UK to work and play and fall in love with some guy with an absolutely smashing accent. Year of transition indeed. It's hilarious, Jol and I will move in together and take a huge step forward in the relationship before that great big ocean leap apart. For a year. Fuuuuuuck. Neither of us know where such a distance will leave us after all is said and done but regardless, we'll take T.O. (and Ontario) for all it's worth this summer.
Guess who else I'm super psyched to chill with this summer?!?!? YOU GUYS! As if you didn't know! When we collide it's a kind of magic and nothing would have made Toronto easier than more of you joining me in misery. Let's get our lives in syncronicity sometime soon, please please for the sake of my sanity, if at best for only one night, and drink to health and happiness and the old times.
As for the whole work thingie, it's been too emotionally packed lately. Please forgive me but I can't even bear to go into the whole long story now. One sentence summary: I've become too attached to a patient and his family. It hurts my head and it hurts my heart and it's not a story that's headed for a happily ever after. As much as I love my job, every once in a while it really sinks in what it is I'm doing here, and that's a heavy realization. Forever sincerest thanks to those brave souls who let me vent and keep me grounded and help me sort through this crappy thing called cancer. I'd lock myself in the closet and live off rum and peanut butter if you weren't here.
Literally.
So the moon's riding high now and Dire Straits pulled me through. Another nice night spent alone with just me, I suppose there are worse fates in life.....
Been trying to sit down and put something for you guys for ages (say, since December?) but writer's block had me licked. In previous drafts to this blog I've gotten a few scant sentences down and then my muse randomly decides "ah fuck it!" and I'm left with squat.
So here goes, I'm feeling the vibe tonight with some Dire Straits playing in the background.....Brothers in Arms, let's see how we do........
Been living in many different moods and mindsets these past months, marvelling at the wonders and the terrors of Toronto and the surrounding universe. It's been a back and forth ongoing battle between me and the big city for the past 2 years now and I'm pleased (?) to say we've finally put aside our differences and let bygones be bygones and be pals. Of course, we could never come to such an agreement were I not getting the bloody hell outta here.
That's right my monkeys, transition phase is coming to a close this year and Amy's back in the driver's seat again. Or plane seat belt. Like so many of my kind (ie you guys), Australia beckons and I'll be going down under to play the didgeridoo in fall 2006. All brought to me oh so hassle free by my nursing degree. The plan is to live, love, work and play in Perth for a year and then see where the seas send me. Perhaps back to Canada, perhaps on to some other brave new home. It's all in the paperwork stage right now but at least I know it's coming up. Australia is what got me through another Toronto winter and Australia is what will make this last Toronto summer all the sweeter. So much to look forward to. Then again, there's going to be so much to miss.
Namely my boy genius Jolan. Damn damn damn the man and his unfaltering devotion to his hometown. It's been over a year now (wtf?) as team J&A, and apart from cat allergies and differing opinions on the capital of Ontario, it's been all love, as they say in Spain. Regardless of what is to come, we'll depart ways with a bang once he moves in for the summer. Gaaaaaaa! Messhica is abandoning me with a boy, taking a short stay in Barrie before she voyages off to the UK to work and play and fall in love with some guy with an absolutely smashing accent. Year of transition indeed. It's hilarious, Jol and I will move in together and take a huge step forward in the relationship before that great big ocean leap apart. For a year. Fuuuuuuck. Neither of us know where such a distance will leave us after all is said and done but regardless, we'll take T.O. (and Ontario) for all it's worth this summer.
Guess who else I'm super psyched to chill with this summer?!?!? YOU GUYS! As if you didn't know! When we collide it's a kind of magic and nothing would have made Toronto easier than more of you joining me in misery. Let's get our lives in syncronicity sometime soon, please please for the sake of my sanity, if at best for only one night, and drink to health and happiness and the old times.
As for the whole work thingie, it's been too emotionally packed lately. Please forgive me but I can't even bear to go into the whole long story now. One sentence summary: I've become too attached to a patient and his family. It hurts my head and it hurts my heart and it's not a story that's headed for a happily ever after. As much as I love my job, every once in a while it really sinks in what it is I'm doing here, and that's a heavy realization. Forever sincerest thanks to those brave souls who let me vent and keep me grounded and help me sort through this crappy thing called cancer. I'd lock myself in the closet and live off rum and peanut butter if you weren't here.
Literally.
So the moon's riding high now and Dire Straits pulled me through. Another nice night spent alone with just me, I suppose there are worse fates in life.....
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